Hujan.

Kadang-kadang kita rindu dengan hujan yang menyapa muka kita walaupun huja  selalu buat baju yang kita sidai di ampaian tak kering.

Kuning

Kita akan duduk di atas puncak itu
Kita menghirup meggi separuh mentah
Yang kita masak seminit tadi
Yang kita makan kerana lapar yang tak tertahankan

Kita bercerita perihal masa lalu kita yang indah
Sambil melihat bintang malam
Dan aku akan berpura-pura memerhatikan bulan purnama
Sedangkan aku merenung kamu

Dan "Yellow" akan menyanyi-nyanyi di telinga kita sepanjang malam.

A talk to remeber.

Its must been ages since aku borak dengan ayah. Owh God! Sumpah rindu gila.

I always been a daddy's girl dari kecik. I even put a long hatred feelings for my sister cuz i thought she took away my ayah (fyi,ayah always biased with his daughter)

Lately, duit habis kering kontang. Tinggal 100-200 rupees je simpan tu pun sbb takut2 minyak motor habis ke cemana. Nak topup pin xde duit weyh. Apetah beli buku OBG. Punya lahhh miskin.

And when this thing that happening to nisa ni asyik buat aku teringat kat ayah je.

Bila elaun masuk, terus bantai call ayah borak sampai setengah jam kalah pakwe-makwe weyh!

Cakap pasal rayban la, royal anfield la, ayah nisa la, my studies, china, raya etc.

Its been ages since i have talked to ayah this much. Owhhhh mengalir air mata.

P/S: padah x pi mengundi kena leter dengan ayah tadi.

Alfatihah to ayah nisa

Ayah nisa meninngal dunia pagi ni jam 7.30 pagi waktu India. Ayah dia menghidap cancer. Not even a year he's been diagnosed, skrg dah meninggal. Allah, how fast the dunya is leaving us.

Im frozen in my bed. Helpless.
What's gonna happen to her sister and brother. Kecik lagi kot. Baru spm dgn upsr.
That small adik tu, how he will  accept the fact that he is no longer have his dad on his side? Allahu.
Who's gonna hear all her mom's complaint of the day?

I cant imagine me in her shoe. My ayah been suffering from diabetes mellitus. Idk since when. He loss his teeth, become thin. He looks older than his real age. I once saw him shivering during Ramadhan due to hypoglycemia he's facing when he's trying to fast.

Ayah dont leave so fast. Idk if i have done my duty as a daughter to you. Regardless how small your salary is, i know u still work hard for our family rite?

Hold on for our big family.
Hold on for mak's nagging and complaining to you
Hold on to us ur 7 children
Hold on for being Aiman's bestfriend
Hold on to be my and Beby's wali (and maisara too insyaAllah)
Hold on till i graduate
Hold on till i bring both you and mak to umrah
Hold on.
Just hold on,ayah.

kisah bapak orang dan bapak saya

bapak dia sakit. kanser, dengarnya tenat dah bapak dia. terus dia book tiket pulang ke Malaysia.

bapak dia bertanding PRU13 nanti. calon PAS. berusaha dia promote bapak dia dalam fb. tolong pancing undi maybe.

bapak dia kahwin lain, diam-diam. dia kecewa.

bapak dia western betul. dia pulak akak naqibah. pening dia fikirkan macam mana nak berdakwah kepada ayah dia.

tapi tu cerita dia. cerita bapak orang.

bapak saya nampak tua dari umur sebenar. gigi pun kadang2 ada, kadang2 takde. duit untuk anak2 pun belum tentu cukup, apatah lagi nak afford gigi palsu. bapak saya kuat merokok,satu badan dia bau rokok. bersifat diktator. nama pelik. bapak saya ada kencing manis. bapak saya orang melaka. bapak saya masih bekerja, walaupun kadang-kadang saya pun confius dengan perkerjaan dia yang terkini.

tapi, bapak saya tetap bapak saya. buruk baik dia, tu lahhh satu-satu nya bapak yang ada. Babji tu jugaklah i have to carry with my names sampai mati.

cant imagine life without ayah. couldn't.

please hold on till saya dapat ijazah dan saya nikah. i want you to be my wali.

A post for damia

Her name was damia.

She's my jannah-mates insyaAllah. We both promise ourselves that we will strive for jannah and met each other there. To think how pure our friendship is, makes me cry most of the time. The time when i just forgot our aim, she would just popped out and keep me back on track. All praise to Allah for giving me such a wonderful friendship with her.

May Allah grant us both jannah. So we can meet up there and lepak till forever. :)

Warming up

Assalamualaikum peeps. Uhuk. Uhuk.

Sorry. Berhabuk benor dah blog ni.

Plan to cont writing stuff here from my galaxy note. Soon. InsyaAllah.

Cuz i realise i've been liking the idea of writing long posts on facebook and i should just use my blog balik.

Since its a post from a phone, please expect multiple typos here and there and spelling error and whatsoever onwards. Dont tegur, cuz i dont care.

I'll post stuff. Maybe about life, stuff i like etc. I try to keep in short (its a phone post.. what do you expect anyway) and simple.

Stay tuned.