working life.

after you study, you definitely gonna go find some work. well, practically saying, work arent as easy as one could think of. but, well, its still depends. who, what and how was the environment are you working with. when it suits you, it feels nice. if its not, then you gonna quit. but thing are not as easy as that. sometimes, you dont have much choice but to only bear with the environment that you dont like.

my brother and i are both working right now. he goes to J.Co Donuts while i stuck here in the Starbucks. during our first week, my brother kindda enjoy his work. the senior employee are so nice to him, the donuts are nice and everything seems so right then. well, for me, honestly speaking, im not really into my job. things have to be learnt fast, some of my senior employee are too scary for me and the job, SUPER TIRING! but now, things are getting better. its a good experience tho to work here. you learn a lot of new stuff, learnt how to be discipline and stick to the rules of you store and all the employee are fun! all these hardness i take as my pre-training for myself before i become a real doctor *mmg poyo macam nak kena sepak je kann?*

i am really clumsy at work. and almost all my manager cant believe that i'll taking medicine and they always said that they doubt me. they even said they wont coming to the hospital i'll be working. hahahahaha.. cant blame them. i also doubt my self. but then, my brother are quitting soon. he said he's not fit into the environment. well, i know just making excuses. he's a guy who cant stick to rules. i mean tight rules. im kindda disappointed with his attitude. but when you arent feel good with your working environment, you wouldnt put your full commitment into the work. same goes with my brother. he come late to work. he always complaint. and now, he's said he is quitting. i cant say more. im sadly too disappointed.

this is just a bit of my pre-working life. just my part time work. not a real job. maybe i wanna hear yours too. just share. :)

001: i gave my number and this is what they wrote for me. :)

bosco:

001 ! Ish ! Ni buat la ni ! Well.. Entahlah how we became close.. But the thing I remember best about you is that you made curry puffs and nasi lemak for me ! And honestly they were great ! You are a very outgoing and outspoken person.. Not shy to voice out your thoughts.. very happening and friendly to all.. Always in smiles and very lively !
P.S. You look great in leggings ! Black leggings !

ah hun:

hehee...nw it is miss 001... oh wat shud i say.... yeah.. at first, i nvr knw there is any tall gal in ktt other than reena and manpreet... bt den, i noticed u wen u joined us during Christmas' caroling... u r such a sporting gal... our frenship getin closer wen u joined badminton gang... evy evening, we wil gila22gether... mmg gila... u hav d talent in bcuming juruhebah... yeah itu dia bola tlekat di jaring... mis u so much.. sumtimes im scared of u 2,.... u r v strong..... bole baling bola... kuat... u r rili strong.. i tabik... smpkan ada yg disuruh spon piza... mmg gila2...... bt sumtimes can get v emosinal too... hehehhe.... hope we can meet agen during KI n gila2 agen... hehehe

haziq:

001, antara budak prmpuan yg plg tggi dkat KTT. tak ingat mcm mana kenal. Kalau tak silap dr captain ball kot. Kalau bcakap memang bsar la suara. Satu KTT boleh dengar. Aktif bsukan. Selalu main bdminton tiap ptg. Xtau bila masa dia ni stdy, asyik tgk dia ni merayau-rayau je. Haha. Ye ke?smart kot. Glad to knw u XD

huzaishysy:

001-err...mau ckp apa ni agar aku x dhentam?hehehe...1st impression,knpa aku dhlg dri masuk kelas kau?bknnya aku mau kacau kau pun.ni mst dpngaruh dgn minah badar tu.p lama2,kau sama mcm bb ja bgi aku.tough outside,tp aku boleh nmpk ah,kdg2 klu drg ni ejek2 kau,kau mcm mnahan airmata ja...social,mcm QiQi.bgi la apa2 kaum dgn kau,boleh bgaul punya

lucy:

001-the most talkative woman..nmpk matang dr sudut penampilan..ambitious dlm melakukan aksi..not bad at all..jd mentor fzik aku time da nk exam..x lokek ilmu..ko tny jek die pape..msti dpt pulangan yg terbaik..sentiasa mkn di kdi mamak..mgkin ad kturunan mamak kot:Dgurau jek...balancing tgi antre study n sport...nice one:D

casto:

001-kebolehan menggantikan speaker d dlm dewan kerana suare yg agak base*..kerkepimpinan..sedikit mata duitan.haha.tp friendly..mudah bergaul..bijak memenuhi ruang..haahaa..petah berbicara..bdn wanita tp berfikiran lelaki pertama pernah ak jumpa..ak rase dy bole pergi jauh..:)

jobot:

001-yang ni asek2 nk mintak aku blanje..cube la skali skale blanje aku lak..tu je..yg laen aku lupe..sori..hahahahahah

mumu:

next special utk miss 001, kenal kat..xyah aa g tau.. sumwhere la.. hehe.. active sukan, pandai, tinggi, suka mnyanyi.. teringat kenangan time BTN, nyanyi kat tandas..hehehe.. suara besar tu, org yg jerit utk alertkan dorm kita time BTN.. nada suara time tu ibarat pelapis Ibrahim pendek.. hehehe.. friendly, mesra, peramah rindu la dgn kau... :D

munie:

001 : first time aku nampak kau, bila lalu class ALL 8 je, first impression: mesra dengan lelaki lebih daripada perempuan. tapi anda sebenarnya unisex. :D sangat suka sports and you are not really afraid to voice out your opinion on anything, & i mean anythingg! haha.Oh, your cooking is one of the best i've ever tasted, kalau boleh, nak upah tolong jadi tukang masak kat college. Quite rajin, and you stand up for your friends, which is one of the things i like. :)

muadz:

001. Em, budak pelik dekat ktt. mula mula aku gelar kakak haziq sebab asyik ajak haziq main captain ball je, and of cos, rajin tegur haziq dekat fb. Oh, ingat lagi the time 001 ni cakap ferrari ada nfs, so we put the car lists of all nfs's series, muehehe. but yea, 001 ni baik, sangat baik sebenarnya. and skema jua :p

thanks for the thoughts tho. love it! :)

maybe i have to reconsider

i've been working in starbucks for like, what, 1 week and i can say it is super tiring and super stress (sometimes). but what comes in my mind was, this place is busy, there's no room for mistakes and carelessness, well how even worst hospital could be?

at least in starbucks i got a 50 minutes break, i can chat with my partners sometime when it is less busy and also there's no harm on making mistakes. but then, after some deep thinking, this is just starbucks. hospital could be even worst. u may be scolded 10 times more but senior doctors. there no single slit of space for mistakes as you are dealing with lives. and you are busy. i mean, freakingly busy. i may have to manage my own time for sleep, pray and treating patients. well. the major question is,

am i prepared?

physically and mentally.

only Allah knows my main purpose of choosing this field. hope Allah will make things easier for me. :)

i am as never as disgrateful as today. my mum was giving some free lecture on "how to not become disrespectful daughter"

my dad are getting old. and getting emo up to a level that u really need to taking a good care of his feeling that you don't want to hurt him. my mum, still with her opinion that medicine maybe not my best options. i should rather choose business or account. she keep comparing me with the other people's daughter and that's really annoys me. A LOT.

my mum side are not as good in their academics. she always afraid that i might end up become arrogant toward her side's relatives. well, i used to become very close with her side but soon on, i find myself does not belong there. i am not enjoying myself there. =.=!

an there is a battle itself for my mum side and my father side. well, we siblings are closer to our father side but my mum always keep persuaded us that hers are better than my dad's were. i hate hearing those actually.

and sometimes, thing are getting tougher than i thought. A-level are not something you messed with. and there's your youth times are sacrificed.

how i wish i am not as clever as today.

preview selepas beberapa hari (2 hari sebenarnya) saya bekerja di starbucks

on the moment i'm writing this entry, it's already 2 days i've been working in Starbucks Sunway Pyramid. well, one word to describe all : SUPER TIRING.

i enjoy most of my my time on early shift. i mean, the day shift. where Abang Su (my super manager), Kak Jareena, Kak Yana, Kak Wahida and Khairul was there. they are very, very niceeeeeeeeee people. owh, i forgot to mention Kak fazrina. (haha, i memang want to list everyone's name kan?) oke. oke. kak jareena are the irst to greet me when i am too shy to even speak to anyone (yerp, everyone. i am SHY). then, kak yana and kak waheeda are super nice, dude. they are those people who work with their mouth on which is almost the same as i am. and, kahirul, u are fabulous. u remind me of my fellow KTT friends, Ricky Rack. hehs! kak faz, she is a good coach where she teaches me how to do ice blended more often than anyone else would ask. wee. :D

on night shift, only left kak aqilah that is also quite nice to me. my manager at night usually are Joshua. well, i think he is kindda good looking but he voice are like ROBOT. i mean, the voice sound super funny and speak super fast. i need to think twice before i could even digest what he was teaching me or what he is saying to me. he didn't speak much. he's kind of guy who work more with their hands than their mouth. next, ah kian n ah yong (aku rasa macam ni la nama dieorg. haha.. aku baru kenal sehari okeyy..) these are only chinese beside joshua. kian didnt speak much. yong speak sometimes. maybe because we both are newbies there. :) and, and there's a girl. Nurul. o think she hates me. she didn't speak to me and always tegur my kesalahan. i mean, it's not actually. it's just some stuff i do out of normalities but under the right circumstances. haish. i don't really like her. hope i don't work much with her next time.

the customer here are more civilized (well, so far i've seen). some are quite fussy but it's still okay. for the first time i saw a girls smoking is here as well. and i am quite surprise by the numbers and the way they smoke. even stylo than guys did! feww. tipulah kalau i say tak ada langsung apek hensem, muka ala-ala Kim Hyun Joon, bawak DSLR jenama Nikon ke hulu-hilr, stylo gila baban and sumpah la aku memang dah jatuh cinta kan, tapi apekan daya, selalu nya mesti ade gf dia kat sebelah yang sama hot ala-ala Sooyoung girls generation. haish. kuciwa betul. haish. haish. *mengeluh berulang-ulang kali*

my BTN story

well, i don't have much to share about BTN. the accommodation is superb. well, twice better from my hostel. no, no. i guess my hostel are better.the food is okay though. i mean, just ok. you will never feel hungry at all. my dormates are nice.

the whole BTN stuff is okay for me. just a few incidence occur. but nevermind, just assume it as a part of learning anyway.

for those who might concern, yes BTN is brainwashing camp. unfortunately, our cam is kindda strict compared to those in Meru. but im okayy with that. we have to march almost EVERYDAY. i find it quite interesting to kawad actually as long as you know the way to do so. ours ceramah and LDK is wayyyy to boring. the penceramah talked for like, what, 2 hours and the slide is not even moving at all. and most of the speech is mostly nothing related to the slides and to my absolute anger, NOTHING ON THE LDK OR THE SPEECH OR SLIDES ARE QUESTIONED IN THE EXAM.

and, and our camp have this special drama *i should called it* at the end of our last night there. haha.. i called it KTT's 1957: Hati Malaya. i don't want to tell the whole drama stuff. it's just conflict happen among us. i fell sad for the INTEC students who have to went through all these with us. haish. its so dramatic. i saw munnie cried, narahari was yelling *well, i thought he would never care* , hillary was angry, azim was pissed by the fasie. well, it's was so hard that night. but, we endure it already. after some consideration and hearing for every sides, then you would understand. it's not we want to bringing up the conflict, but it's because we care for each other that we choose to make several action that differs from everyone else. after thinking like that, i feel the love. and i feel really glad to have such friend.

the fasie kindda annoys me a bit. one guy from my group are giving speech representing chinese community during the camp. well, he is so innocent and so good that i wouldn't even bully him. he is soooooo nice. but instead, the fasie keep provoking this guy and saying stuff that i shall say quite harsh.

zheng: saya x pernah baca newspaper and watch news on tv

abg fasie: (dengan nada kasar) awak x rasa awak ni macam x guna ke? awak x baca paper, x tgk berita. xrasa macam x berguna ke, baik xpayah hidup je bagus. hah, kalau kfc buat promo makan free pun awak xtau.

zheng: (diam)...... kalau promo kfc, saya mmg xtau apa2 sebab saya vegetarian.

well, i were to choose, i don't want to come again for BTN. enough with the perlembagaan thingy. it makes my head feel dizzy. =.=!

kalau berpacaran- altimet,ana raffali dan sohaimi

first malay song, well except faizal tahir's, that makes me hooked up at my very first time i heard this song. weee...! downloading. downloading.

Sohaimi Mior Hassan)
Kalau berpacaran memang banyak pantang larang
Menjaga susila ibu bapa adik abang
Apabila berdua carilah tempat yang terang
Agar tidak pula mencoba aksi terlarang

(Korus)
Boleh pandang-pandang jangan pegang-pegang
Duduk renggang-renggang bertambah sayang
Biar malu-malu biar segan-segan
Kerna malu itu perisai orang beriman

(Ana Raffali)
Kalau berpacaran jangan tunggu lama-lama
Kalau dah berkenan jumpalah ayah dan mama
Hantarkan rombongan meminang dengan segera
Kalau terlambat kekasihku disambar buaya

(ulang Korus)

(Altimet)
Yeah kita sambung cerita
Kalau kamu berdua aku yang ketiga ha ha ha
Aku penambah perasa
Akulah pendarab nafsu serakah
Hai teruna bikin perangai selamba
Hati si dara kata tak apa
Berani buat terima padah
Kalau tak sedia ucap syahadah

(ulang korus)

Boleh pandang-pandang (boleh pandang-pandang)
jangan pegang-pegang (boleh pegang-pegang)
Duduk renggang-renggang (duduk rapat-rapat)
bertambah sayang (nanti konfirm dapat)
Biar malu-malu (jangan malu-malu)
biar segan-segan (jangan segan-segan)
Kerna malu itu perisai orang beriman (hahahaha)

this my another family. :)

berbalik kepada post yang riang gumbira.

tuan-tuan dan puan-puan, presenting, my 3rd family!!
(91 all starz still in my num 2 rank. hee :))
meh. meh. let me introduce you to these nice people i've regard as my own sibling in my dear
KTT.

ini rena. seorang punjabi celup. haha. that is what we like to call her. she's a punjabi but she doesn't look like one. plus, she know nothing of punjabi language. strange kan? she is my very best sport partner. :) owh, owh, one fact. u guys think i'm loud kan? she LOUDER.

next to her is gavin. dia bosss besarrr. ( betul-betul BESARRRR punya. xtipu.) dia our very absolute boss kami. kalau dia cakap A, mesti semua akan follow. plus, dia paling matured among us.

ni ru ren. hurm. one of the most tallest guy in our college. he's freaking tall. sumpah tak tipu. he's originally from Kelantan ( he's can speak klate. awesome kan?) and he is the most immatured among us. plus, dia sangatttttt perasan hensem. :P he likes to sing but he's voice is sumpah x best.


this is the pembuli. both. john hii and vei hung. x perlulah saya nak introduce mereka. menyemakkan memori korang semata-mata. hahaha..

this is mark and ah wei. one chindian yang unfortunately no really that handsome ( well, i thought all chindian are handsome.) but, nvm la mark. u are soo damn nice. i'll ingore your un-handsomeness. haha. ah wei, he has the biggest stomach. we used to called him majlis pembandaran, well u know what it means.


this is ah hun. dia erm, erm.. buas. sorry lah ah hun. i know u dont like this pic but i look nice in it. :P *selfish*

there's more of this family actually. well, we have john kiu, afiq tan ( kau aku included jugak. kau patut stop kutuk aku) and our pet, brad pitt the hamster. :)
they are nice funny people who complete my whole puzzle pieces of my college life and half of my teenagers live.

*i hope they not reading my blog or i'm half dead*

human uncertainty

kita manusia yang lemah. device yang penuh dengan uncertainty.

2,3 hari ni aku rasa aku macam manusia tamak. tak pernah puas dengan apa yang ada. aku rasa aku macam (bukan macam.memang) ramai kawan. tapi tu semua kawan nak bergelak ketawa . time-time ni lah saya rasa saya rindu pah, rindu a'an, rindu kiko, rindu damia.... korang mesti tau apa nak buat nak pleased aku kan?

aku memang tak reti nak marah or scolded people. tak reti nak cakap yang aku tak suka apa yang kau buat, instead, aku join sekali. haish. kadang-kadang, rasa macam nak marah. tapi tak reti nak tengking balik. cuma tahu diamkan diri. i just cry if i too pissed off. bodoh kan? tengoklah. sekarang tengah jiwa kacau kasik lepas dalam blog. padan muka reader baca post emo aku hari ni. biarlah. siapa suruh baca blog ni.

haish.
biarlah saya layan perasaan ni sorang-sorang.

so many things to say yet so little time.

i'm happy today~!!! yeepi. yeppi. hana tajima was actually reading my blog! woosh! this is freaking cool. it's like getting a moment to talk to your idol!! wahhh!! i'm jumping all over the places and smiling the whole day. :) yes,hana. u actually had brighten up my day.
owh, btw, if you read this, i need to seek for your opinion about what kind of dress i should wear to my graduation nite. it's my very last night before i fly to india next year and of course i wanna look fabulous dat nite. ngee~ :) btw, i'm 168cm and gotta huge lower part of my body. hmph. i'm kindda rough, so i dun want to wear maxi dress plus heels for sure. that is soo not me. yeeeuw. ok. what do you think..? this prom nite kindda thing is one month ahead. so i have so much time to think but my exam is just around the corner. owh, i'm not rich and i prefer cheap stuff. heh. :)


ok. yesterday i did some open house. not really lah. just invite a few friends to come over and celebrating eidul fitri with them. and to my suprise, some of them actually first time eating malay cuisine and some stuff they dont even know like lemang, and urap kelapa (or some people called it serunding). honestly speaking, i was actually takut wanna bring over friends to my house. well, it's so small, serba kekurangan but there actually didnt care about it and actually accept me just the way i are. and that really makes me feel relieves. haha.
i just wear my checkered shirt. i've lost my sense of fashion now. haha.

A2 are getting nearer. its kindda freak me out a bit. we finished the whole syllabus for bio, chem and maths. only physics left. but i think i can cope with it. well, i really like physics. kindda weird for a medical-to-be students but yeah, i really love it. more than i actually love bio. :P ngeh.
for the first i dont really care how many A's i will get, as long i pass through the cut-off point and able to fly to india, i will be grateful enough. yeay!

i fall in love with iphone 4G! wahhh!

there's a devil at my side whisper this to me "jum tengok personal taste. le min ho. handsome tuuu~ or.. watch kaichou wa maid-sama. come on bebeh!"
the other angel beside said this " study. study. or else you wont fly to india and be a medicine student. you will be a LOSER"
and of course the angel words kindda freak me out abut i always thought the devils offer kindda good. :)

my hamster are fat. fat. and fat!!! and getting cuter everyday. :) my dear brad pitt. muax!

hana tajima simpson

OK SO I AM HERE TO TALK ABOUT MY FAVOURITE FASHION PERSON (*krick krick krick* got such word meh) ok anyhoos. her name is Hana Tajima-Simpson.she's a english + japanese person. her mum's english and her dad's a japanese dude.

the reason i love her is because DUDE, SHE HAS THE SAME TASTE AS ME. CEHHHH HAIK TUI.

but seriously i am digging like gold digger about her style.

but whatever it is. i WILL WEAR TUDUNG LIKE HER STYLE ONE DAY. I WILL. hehe. so semangatt.

cool kan?karen... i wish i can be as gorgeous as her. :)
owh, hanaaaa.. you are just so gorgeous. find more about her in her website.

raya terakhir saya di malaysia.

walaupun tak kompem fly lagi, still nak tulis title yang berbaur konpem2 fly. biar. baru semangat sikit nak study. hahahaha. sengal.

well, maybe i've been too sarcastic about my raya this year. oh, well, i should. come to think about it, my kampung was no longer exist (the house have been roboh by my auntie to built a fine nicer house of theirs), my grandma was no longer live ( she died when i was in form 5) and plus, plus, plus, exam is around the corner. which part of the exam that make me concern is most is bio paper 4 and maths paper 3 is on the same day. can u believe that..? my 2 most killer subject is on the same day. on the same day!
yeah. i still think i should kill mr cambridge.

honestly speaking, i think i was wrong. well, maybe this raya wasn't that bad after all. my baju raya this year is a simple white cotton baju kurung with pink and dark blue flower pattern on it. i like it anyway. and i wear it with a dark blue shawl i brought on jalan TAR in KL which cost only rm5. owh, owh, went i passed by this one shop selling very nice jubah, me and my family stop for a while to have a look inside the shop. i want to ask the shopkeeper for an assistance so my father called the shopkeeper. "kak, berapa jubah ni kak?" it's a usual to address a lady older than u as kak. as the shopkeeper turn around, OMG! i can feel the will smith's song playing inside my head, the shopkeeper is actually a guy! a bangla guy to be obvious and he is wearing a black jubah with a shawl and make everyone thought that he is a lady~! even my father was shocked and everyone turned out burst of laughter.

unlike my brother and sister, i don't much effort of collecting duit raya. my brothers all together with my cousin tour to the whole kampung, into any strangers house for the duit raya. haha, i just need to go to some specific relative house and begging with this line " ni raya terakhir saya kat malaysia. bagi lah double." so, most 80% are touched by my words. hahahaha.. then, me and my lil sister went for some outing in our second day of raya. at first, i thought of going to A'Farmosa only but turn out to walk until Jonker Street. A'Farmosa is errm.. ok but freaking hot! no wonder why a lot of people selling fans by the side of the builing. me and my sister were walking like a nyonya with us kipas ourself. haha. except we dont wear the kebaya plus sunglasses. then, we will look exactly like one. then, the best part of this, JONKER STREET!! i spend most of my duit raya there! OMG! i buy a lot of souvenir to my fellow friends in college,yeah, since i've demand present from them. so, as to be polite, i'll buy them some as well. and i've buy a lot to myself too! and i cant stop buying there. shuut. owh, owh, and there accident here as well. i'm buying these one kind of chopstick where they sell according to chinese surname and zodiac. so i thought i can buy some to my chinese friends in college. so, i ask this one chinese guy to help me out. first i ask for lui (as for jin xiang), he took almost 10 minutes looking for lui and keep asking me if is lui or liu. cis. then, i ask for lian (victor). he then looked confused and search for another 10 minutes and end up find nothing. next, i ask for kiu. not there as well. i ask for hii. the guy then turn at me and said, why ur chinese friend's surname so weird one? owh, i thought all chinese surname so common..?

owh, owh, lots of my relatives are saying that my body have loss quite a mass. hahaha~!! i am indeed very happy. not much effort actually, me myself dont even realize it. hehe.. *still proud of it*

today is the third day of raya. no specific plan for tomorrow but still looking foward to it. honestly speaking, i start to miss college already. but i still love raya! and jonker walk as well! can't wait to be back to college. giving all the souvenir i brought there (hope they like it! *^^* ) and continuing the spirit of raya in the college!!!

sedikit sebanyak ramadhan tahun ini

alhamdulillah da sampai seminggu terakhir pun ramadhan. wah. time flies so fast! not even realizing it.

baru cuti beberapa hari, dah rasa macam nak balik kolej. teruk betul. ramadhan-yang mungkin-terakhir-di-malaysia alhamdulillah sangat best tahun ini. million thanks kepada enchik foo ru ren (si galah panjang yang funny gila tak ingat plus hebat berbahasa kelantan) enchik john hii ( si pembuli no1) , enchik gavin (boss besar) enchik ah wei (dia da 1 pack yang large volume capacity) john kiu, aarun, mark, rena (penghuni setia tanjung rambutan), afiq tan (pervert no 1 KTT) and crazy fellow housemate and classmate cuz menceriakan ramadhan saya di sini. :)


flash back balik ramadhan KTT tahun ini, lots of masak-masak, share food with neighbors and closed friends, play badminton almost every evening (and yes i am still fasting that moment), going buka puasa outside with my non-muslim friends here, tarawikh with my housemate and enjoying every moment with them.

i guess i'm gonna miss this a lot if i fly next year to india. :)

makna merdeka bagi saya.

kebebasan..? ahh, boring. ayat sama berulang-kali.
merdeka means deeper. in malaysian way, i can summarise my merdeka meaning by this situation.

1. sit in mamak stall while watching Thomas cup and supporting Malaysia! sitting with all other races in one table and regardless of what races, we sit shout to our limit and give our very best support to Malaysia against China. owh! not to forget, on that day, tomorrow is our AS exam.

2. i saw my college's janitor (consist of malay and indians) sharing their lunch box together. how sweet! i mean, you can share your food with others without hesitated. put our trust on them because you know they understand your sensitivity on food.

3. puasa sama-sama with all your non-malay friends. and breakfast together. sometimes, they don't fast, but they try their very best to not let you see them eating neither talk about food to respect you.

4. a friend of different religion come to our Karnival Kesenian Islam in our college. they come to our exhibition and gives support to their friend who are entering competition during this carnival regardless of our religion barrier.

where you can have this situation...? only here in KTT :)

belasungkawa : afiq nordin arshad (14 march 1991- 18 jun 2010)

Firman Allah Swt :

Tiap-tiap yang berjiwa akan merasakan mati. Kemudian hanyalah kepada Kami kamu dikembalikan. (AL'ANKABUUT 57).


afiq nordin arshard. we've known each other for years. went through our five hppy years at SBPIT and of course we had a nice years back then because of you! even we've become classmate just for a years, we always been so close as we're both the KL clan, remember? we always fought with each other in form 3. but i did enjoys every moment with you.

after SPM, we've never seen other, i never expect that i will see you in such way. you always comment at my wall in fb. never forget to tag me whenever you have some interesting pics in your fb. you always send me question in my formspring. and i know from your sister that you always talk about me to your lil sis. you have always been a good friends to me.

kalau aku boleh putar masa, aku akan dengar setiap jenakamu dan ketawa bersama denganmu, melayan setiap keletahmu, mendengar semua gossip mu, bergembira di ats setiap kejayaanmu, meng'comment' setiap tag2 mu, menjwab semua soalan formspring mu... kemudian, aku tersedar.. masa itu x boleh diputar kembali. kau tetap per...gi jua. doaku akan sentiasa mengiringi mu.

losing you have been a great loss to everyone who knows you.

and everyone who are still grieving on his death, remember this
Allah s.w.t. tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya. Ia mendapat pahala dari kebajikan yang diusahakannya dan mendapat siksa dari kejahatan yang dikerjakannya. Mereka berdoa "Ya Tuhan kami, jangan Engkau bebankan orang-orang yang sebelum kami. Ya Tuhan kami janganlah Engkau pikulkan kepada kami apa yang tidak sanggup kami memikulnya. Maafkanlah kami, ampunilah kami; dan rahmatilah kami, Engkaulah penolong kami, tolonglah kami atas orang-orang kafir." (surah al-baqarah)

same2 la kita sedekahkan al-fatihah kepada arwah

Pertemuan Kita Di Suatu Hari
Menitiskan Ukhwah Yang Sejati
Bersyukurku Ke Hadrat Ilahi Di Atas Jalinan Yang Suci

Namun Kini Perpisahan Yang Terjadi
Dugaan Yang Menimpa Diri
Bersabarlah Di Atas Suratan
Kau Tetap Pergi Jua

Kan Ku Utuskan Salam Ingatanku
Dalam Doa Kudusku Sepanjang Waktu
Ya Allah Bantulah Hamba Mu

Mencari Hidayah Daripada Mu
Dalam Mendidikkan Kesabaranku
Ya Allah Tabahkan Hati Hamba Mu
Di Atas Perpisahan Ini

"Teman Betapa Pilunya Hati Menghadapi Perpisahan Ini.
Pahit Manis Perjuangan Telah Kita Rasa Bersama. Semoga
Allah Meredhai Persahabatan Dan Perpisahan Ini. Teruskan
Perjuangan"

Senyuman Yang Tersirat Di Bibirmu
Menjadi Ingatanku Setiap Waktu
Tanda Kemesraan Bersimpul Padu
kan Kenangmu Di Dalam Doaku

Semoga Tuhan Berkatimu

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i am bestfriend of nobody
and
nobody is my bestfriend.





ignorance is a total bliss.

happy teachers day!!!!

In the middle of this drifting season
I suddenly feel the length of the days
In the midst of these quickly-passing days
You and I dream away

With my feelings on the March wind
The cherry blossom buds continue on into spring

The overflowing drops of light
One by one warm the morning
Beside you, I'm a little embarrassed
After a huge yawn

I'm standing at the door to a new world
What I've realized is that I'm not alone

If I close my eyes
You're behind my eyelids
How strong has that made me?
I hope I'm the same for you

The dusty whirlwind
Tangled up the laundry, but
The white moon in the morning sky
Was so beautiful, I couldn't look away

There are things that don't go the way I planned
But if I look up to the sky, even they seem small

The blue sky is cold and clear
The fluffy clouds float by quietly
If I can share with you the joy
Of waiting for the flowers to bloom, I'll be happy

From now on, I want you to be quietly smiling beside me

If I close my eyes
You're behind my eyelids
How strong has that made me?
I hope I'm the same for you


nice wordings huh? totally agree!! so, i'm dedicating this to everyone on this luvly teachers day. everyone is a teacher to me. u guys makes me who i am today. whether i'm learning directly or indirectly from anyone of you, the knowledge u guys gave to me is priceless! and the most importantly, i want u to know that, each and everyone of u are precious~! thanks..

marriage, ready or not?

girls do think about sex and marriage. seriously.
well,i dun really take it seriously when suddenly one of my friend suddenly came across about this topic. hahaha.. it's kindda funny to think tho. well, we're still 19. but on deep thinking, another 7 or 8 years, we all have probability of getting married. 8 years is not a long period. it's just a blink of eyes. u won't even notice that time actually passed very quickly. oke. back to the main topic. well, most girls about my age when talked about marriage, we all think dress, pelamin and how grand it is. hahahaha.. i'm thinking the same also. but this one friend of mine is really mature on thinking. she have thought beyond, like what kind of husband she would wish to get, or how she would treat her husband. it not just normal treat like serve tea after the husband went back home from work. its far, far beyond it. she have thought of how to make the marriage to be fun everyday, how to treat the husband so that the husband wont feel bored and seek another wife, its more to sex actually. well, maybe some people would think she was been thinking too much. but for me, she kindda true. study is my main priority. but you cant avoid thinking about marriage. like i said earlier, 8 years is no long time to wait.
to be honest,i'm really curious what kind a husband i would get. a doctor maybe? or engineer? or maybe i would not getting married at all? OMG! minta jauh2x~!! one thing that God promise us is good woman is made for a good man only. that is important. so, be nice. then u would have nice husband in return.

pray everyday that u're jodoh is someone nice and religious so that he can lead to ur God's path. marriage is not a something u can play about. it's a bout giving ur love to someone and having a commitment to something. oke. stop thinking too deep. focus on ur AS exam first.


Bismillahirrahmaanirrahiim...

Ya Allah jika aku jatuh cinta,
cintakanlah aku pada seseorang yang melabuhkan cintanya padaMu,
agar bertambah kekuatanku untuk menyintaiMu
Ya Muhaimin, jika aku jatuh hati,
izinkanlah aku menyentuh hati seseorang yang hatinya tertaut padaMu
agar tidak terjatuh aku dalam jurang cinta nafsu...
Ya Rabbana ,jika aku jatuh hati
jagalah hatiku padanya agar tidak berpaling daripada hatiMu.....
Ya Rabbul Izzati ,jika aku rindu ,
rindukanlah aku pada seseorang yang merindui syahid di jalan Mu....
Ya Allah ,jika aku menikmati cinta kekasihMu
janganlah kenikmatan itu melebihi kenikmatan indahnya bermunajat di
sepertiga malam terakhirMu
Ya Allah , jika aku jatuh hati pada kekasihMu
jangan biarkan aku tertatih dan terjatuh dalam perjalanan panjang
menyeru manusia kepadaMu....
Ya Allah jika Kau halalkan aku merindui kekasihMu
jangan biarkan aku melampaui batas sehingga melupakan aku pada cinta hakiki
dan rindu abadi hanya kepadaMu......
Amin.....

baru-baru ni saya baca blog seorang sahabat.
ya. dia menyatakan kebenaran. kebenaran yang saya cari selama ni.
yup. just perfect!

we both on the same boat. well, i have many friends as well. tapi bukan semuanya berkualiti. bukan semuanya baik dan ikhlas dengan kita. sometimes i hope that i am a shy. no. super shy person. so, i wouldn't end up befriend with so many people. memang betul la orang kata. teman ketawa mudah dicari, teman menangis sukar sekali. lagi perit kalau tiada di sebelah kita ketika kita menangis even though we have so many friends beside.

at first, i've thought hari ni adalah best life ever! but i am wrong. when i cried silently at one corner with no one at my side, i pray deep inside if i can turn back to those happy times we've made together. times where i feel i have REAL FRIENDS. times where u wont be crying alone. yeah. that time.

i am happy wif my current situation. but deep inside i'm suffering.

jangan la kumen. biar lah saya layan perasaan saya ni sensorang.

people do change, but me...

so many changes occur in life

it can be good nor bad

i saw lots of people around me changes

how about me?

i do need changes

am i the one who didn't feel the changes in me

or

i am totally not changing?

there's a guy i know who once told me that i should change myself

he said i am too rough for a girl

rough? rough? rough?rough?rough? did he just said rough just now?

is it? i did notice some of the guy in college often called me maskulin because i did have some sort of strong hands when i played captaiball. * i wish u guys know dat i played till state level for handball. no wonder my hands are so strong. i dont take testerone,oke* . haha~.. i don't know how u guys define rough but i've lost idea how to be more soft myself.. i cursed a bit (bit?) and yeah, i do talked too loud and too much. i can control the frequency but i can't control the amplitude when i was talking. hahahhahaha~

oke. next time i'll try oke?

no more cursing

no more speaker. reduce amplitude.

less talking

talk nicely

dun bully people

its for ur own sake.

.change.

my name is nader. i am not a penkid/maskulin/boy.

*ala-ala citer my name is khan*

some of u guys may say, "it's oke. just be urself. "

but be realistic. we all know that changing is the best for me.