since when i started to post so serious..?

i went to tuition. so what? just because you are so kedekut to spend some of your money to attend the tuition, don't make fun of others who actually trying their best to succeed well in their A-level. idk how this people think. yeah, i can accept that if you are brilliant enuf to study only with lecturers only that you don't need these tuition stuff. but, there's a few stupid bunch of annoying asshole, sudah lah ajak pergi tuition tak mau, ejek-ejek orang lain lagi. i'm resistant to these LOSERS already. say whatever you want. i'm the one who succeed. not you. who cares?

there's also a bunch of people who still 'berkira' with their own money. yeah. i admit. rm30 (overall payment plus transportation) is quite a money. but its for our own benefit. i'm not even from a rich girl. my only money is the JPA scholars money and I NEVER ASK MY PARENTS ANY SINGLE CENT. NEVER. i have to 'catu' all my money. limited my expenses especially on food.imagine, i withdraw only rm50 every week. rm30 for the tuition things and the rest for food. rm20 per week. well, that's not included some expenses for other purpose like, class party, buying past years papers, went out shopping, oh, not forgetting, the Raya is coming, of course have to consider my Baju Raya. i have to carefully spend my money and reduce my shopping expenses. it's hard but worth of trying. why cant you did the same?and plis stop claiming that i'm 'anak orang kaya',oke. i hate it.

and still, there got a few who have interest of going tuition, but refuse by lame excuses like 'tak ada geng'. and i even can tell that they don't want to go as they afraid that their friends will make fun of them. OMG! who are going to succeed? you or the rest of your geng? if, for an example, they all went to india, and you didnt made it, do you still think they will even beg the JPA for you? or.. they will refuse the offer because they want to be together with you?and will they actually did that?dream on la! no!

“Truly, God does not change the condition of a people until they change what is in themselves.” (Quran 13:11)

juniors. college. 1malaysia

hye peeps. haven't blog for years. so, i'm pouring everything out here!!

last week we receive juniors. oke. come on. i've never been so excited about junior before. well, back in school days, juniors are freakingly annoying. i never like juniors. at first i thought it goes the same here in KTT, but wallaweyy......!!!! THEY ARE AWESOME!! we are group 2 which called ourselves GAGA-Go And Get Awesome. haha! i know its cool! we suppose to be performing choir. it quite though actually to win wit choir only. but with all crazy brains here- ricky, me, amy, eric dan some other seniors who are willing to help us... our choir all went crazy!! we really enjoy ourselves then. it really fun to see some of the juniors change a lot. i mean A LOT! from skema typical type into some sort of crazy and funny creature just like the seniors. hahahaha...! even the juniors praise us for being a very good seniors to them! *i was dancing over the moon when i heard this* hee~!!! overall, the choir is a xplosive and the juniors are awesome! love them. muax! muax!
since the very first day, we always remind the juniors to mix wif each other. dun be sarcastic to other races. it's fun to mix up actually. well, learning other culture and be friend with a whole new circle of friends is fun! why, dat's is what i think. to be honest, i never befriend with any other races except malay before. the only time i know non-malay friends is in primary school. i think the chinese girl in my class are arrogant. haha.. my non-malay only a few chinese and indians that really from beginning living with malay and getting used of mixing with malays. thats it. but now in college, since i've got JPA scholars, mixing with other races is a must,must here! well, i'm kindda scared at first. but they are nice actually. far from what i thought before. like example, they help me learn a few mandarin words. hehe.. i'm still learning. but my chinese friends help me a lot. then, i've start to play badminton. to be honest, i never played badminton before. even in secondary school. i think that i look stupid playing it. but now, i'm not bluffing but i'm pretty good at it. hehs! and, and it have been my all-new favorite sports. haha.. dun ask me why. i just simply like it. its other than captainball that make happy living here in college. my college is luckily superb! all you need is to come down as early as possible, bring a racket *if you have one* and just simply play without worrying who is playing on the court regardless if they are malays, chinese ar even indians! its so fun men!


and, and,you can come join CCES (chinese cultural and education society) activities even you're obviously not a chinese. *i'm a long-distance cina-peranakan mix..i wonder if i can join CCES.hahahaha~*




it cool to promote your culture to other non-malay friends. and i've learn a few chinese wedding custom when victor chat about it during our i-elts lecturer's wedding. cant wait for victor to get married. at least i can attend my very first chinese wedding ceremony. ahaks! *maka,victor, silalah kahwin segera,oke.*







the best 1-malaysia game in our college!!! oyeah! a few bunch of crazy seniors playing happily in the very 'gersang' field of KTT. this is the time that we feel very united in our hearts. i think we should establish a 'KTT CAPTAINBALL CLUB' and hold a league here. woahh~ it sure b very fun meh!


college life can be tedious and boring. doing the whole same thing over, over and over again. but these are a bunch of people who cheer me up and enlighten my bland day here in KTT.
tengs everyone!

sebab musabab kita suka bola sepak

Aku cakap terus-terang, aku satu kem dengan abang Sepp Blatter yang menentang penggunaan teknologi dalam bolasepak.

Alasan aku sama juga dengan Sepp Blatter. Macam Blatter cakap, "society is not perfect, football is not perfect, it must retain its human face."

Ramai dari kita mungkin tak sedar, tapi kita suk bolasepak kerana ianya tak sempurna. Kita suka kerana ia penuh penipuan, penuh drama, sandiwara, keputusan kontoversi, keputusan meragukan dan macam-macam lagi. Bukan sekadar sebab ianya menyajikan permainan yang menarik.

Apalah bolasepak jika kita tidak boleh hentak gelas dan tumbuk meja di kedai mamak kerana marahkan pemain atau pengadil? Apalah bolasepak jika kita tidak dapat memaki hamun pemain dan pengadil? Apalah bolasepak kalau semasa, selepas dan sebulan kemudian selepas tamat perlawanan kita tidak boleh berbincang dan berdebat dengan kawan-kawan pasal perlawanan yang penuh kontroversi?

Itu sebab kita suka bolasepak. Itu sebab bolasepak sukan nombor satu dunia. Sebab ia cermin kepada kehidupan seharian kita yang juga penuh kontroversi.

Piala Dunia 2010 tidak akan menjadi sesuatu yang menarik jika tidak kerana insiden-insiden kontroversi. Macam Mauel Neuer yang berlakon dengan baik untuk mengeluarkan bola dari gawang hasil tendangan Frank Lampard. Atau Abdelkader Keita yang berpura-pura cedera teruk sehingga Kaka dilayangkan kad merah. Atau pagi tadi bila Luis Suarez bermain 'bola tampar' untuk menyelamatkan Uruguay dari kalah kepada Ghana.

Semua itu cerminan kehidupan seharian kita. Apa yang Neuer buat sama seperti yang kita lakukan bila hendak menyelamatkan diri sendiri, sekalipun sampai menipu. Siapa yang tak pernah tipu untuk selamatkan diri sendiri? Suarez berkorban untuk rakan-rakan, sekalipun apa yang dibuatnya salah dari segi etika dan undang-undang. Kita juga bila terdesak akan buat benda yang sama.

Bolasepak tidak sempurna dan itulah sebab kita suka bolasepak. Bayangkan kalau teknologi ulang tayang hendak digunakan, perlawanan Jerman dan England akan terhenti 10 saat sementara rakaman video dikaji semula. Kita yang duduk di stadium, kedai mamak atau atas sofa di rumah pula hanya terdiam menunggu keputusan kajian video. Langsung tidak ada peluang hentak meja atau maki hamun pengadil.

Sebab itulah bolasepak harus dan sentiasa kekal sebagai 'the simplest game'. Sukan yang undang-undangnya paling mudah dan semuanya diputuskan oleh seorang pengadil atas padang, tak kiralah si pengadil itu bijak atau bebal.

Kerana kalau hendak guna teknologi atau undang-undang yang lebih ketat, kita tidak akan ada Neuer, Keita atau Suarez dalam Piala Dunia ini dan bolasepak akan jadi membosankan macam kriket yang suka guna rakaman video atau bolasepak Amerika yang undang-undangnya pecah kepala kita nak faham.

Malahan abang Subkhiddin kita pun tak setuju guna teknologi dalam bolasepak.

menanti di barzakh

ajal yang datang di depan pintu bukan kita boleh jangka. bukan boleh elak. bukan boleh tangguh. kematian itu adalah sesuatu yang pasti. yang tak mungkin kita boleh lari dari nya. i was talking to others but to remind myself as well. at first, i mean before the death of my friend, i live life like there's no end in it. like i was going to died 60 years ahead. ignoring everything, just do what what you feel good for yourself, kalau berdosa, nanti2 la bertaubat. yeah. thats what i think. not just me, i think most of us did.

but after my friends death, i start valued life. by mean of religious side. i lost almost all desire of life. e.g: before this i want i-pad la, then i want sony aino, bla bla bla... now, i feel like all this thing does not even benefit me at all. bukan boleh bawak masuk kubur pun. kalau mati, bukan malaikat tanya handphone apa yang kita pakai, kan?

what concerned me much is my preparation facing death. do i really prepared. i trying to be "nice". i mean nicer in muslim way but still without hurting others. i try to talk nice, stop talking bad about people, stop scolding people. there's a few thing i can't really change. i can change it but it would drag people's attention. and people would start asking. that sound not nice to me. just be nice and try to pleased everyone lah kan?

there a few people i want to say here. not really want to marah you but just want to give some advise. maybe u guys are not aware of this death thing because korang xrasa sendiri lagi kan? i mean no one close to you have died of sudden. so, maybe u guys can feel relaxed about it. well, let me tell you one thing. deaths can occur anytime, anywhere. you would never know how long are you gonna live in this world. if u guys are doing something sinful, better stop. benda yang kita boleh berhentikan sendiri, baik kita stop je. contohnya, tengah berdating. tiba-tiba ajal tiba. mati ketika tangah melakukan dosa. astaga~. minta jauh. dosa yang boleh elak buat, better we not even doing it at all. kalau dosa yang tanpa kita sedari, contoh mengumpat (sebenarnya sedar.. tapi kadang2 kan..), TERcakap kasar... korang fikirlah sendiri. ape guna TUHAN beri akal kalau bukan untuk berfikir. renung-renungkan dan selamat beramal.

belasungkawa : afiq nordin arshad (14 march 1991- 18 jun 2010)

Firman Allah Swt :

Tiap-tiap yang berjiwa akan merasakan mati. Kemudian hanyalah kepada Kami kamu dikembalikan. (AL'ANKABUUT 57).


afiq nordin arshard. we've known each other for years. went through our five hppy years at SBPIT and of course we had a nice years back then because of you! even we've become classmate just for a years, we always been so close as we're both the KL clan, remember? we always fought with each other in form 3. but i did enjoys every moment with you.

after SPM, we've never seen other, i never expect that i will see you in such way. you always comment at my wall in fb. never forget to tag me whenever you have some interesting pics in your fb. you always send me question in my formspring. and i know from your sister that you always talk about me to your lil sis. you have always been a good friends to me.

kalau aku boleh putar masa, aku akan dengar setiap jenakamu dan ketawa bersama denganmu, melayan setiap keletahmu, mendengar semua gossip mu, bergembira di ats setiap kejayaanmu, meng'comment' setiap tag2 mu, menjwab semua soalan formspring mu... kemudian, aku tersedar.. masa itu x boleh diputar kembali. kau tetap per...gi jua. doaku akan sentiasa mengiringi mu.

losing you have been a great loss to everyone who knows you.

and everyone who are still grieving on his death, remember this
Allah s.w.t. tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya. Ia mendapat pahala dari kebajikan yang diusahakannya dan mendapat siksa dari kejahatan yang dikerjakannya. Mereka berdoa "Ya Tuhan kami, jangan Engkau bebankan orang-orang yang sebelum kami. Ya Tuhan kami janganlah Engkau pikulkan kepada kami apa yang tidak sanggup kami memikulnya. Maafkanlah kami, ampunilah kami; dan rahmatilah kami, Engkaulah penolong kami, tolonglah kami atas orang-orang kafir." (surah al-baqarah)

same2 la kita sedekahkan al-fatihah kepada arwah

Pertemuan Kita Di Suatu Hari
Menitiskan Ukhwah Yang Sejati
Bersyukurku Ke Hadrat Ilahi Di Atas Jalinan Yang Suci

Namun Kini Perpisahan Yang Terjadi
Dugaan Yang Menimpa Diri
Bersabarlah Di Atas Suratan
Kau Tetap Pergi Jua

Kan Ku Utuskan Salam Ingatanku
Dalam Doa Kudusku Sepanjang Waktu
Ya Allah Bantulah Hamba Mu

Mencari Hidayah Daripada Mu
Dalam Mendidikkan Kesabaranku
Ya Allah Tabahkan Hati Hamba Mu
Di Atas Perpisahan Ini

"Teman Betapa Pilunya Hati Menghadapi Perpisahan Ini.
Pahit Manis Perjuangan Telah Kita Rasa Bersama. Semoga
Allah Meredhai Persahabatan Dan Perpisahan Ini. Teruskan
Perjuangan"

Senyuman Yang Tersirat Di Bibirmu
Menjadi Ingatanku Setiap Waktu
Tanda Kemesraan Bersimpul Padu
kan Kenangmu Di Dalam Doaku

Semoga Tuhan Berkatimu

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have you shown ur love?

Unlike Karim Benzema which does not show his religious side on the field, this is not the case for Samir Nasri who does not care what people will say it.

At the beginning of each game, Nasri has isolated few seconds for raise his both hands to heaven, to recite the Fatiha.

i dont know if i have the right to say this. but we never shown our love to ALLAH like this much. we tends to shout yess! instead of ALHAMDULILLAH if we score goal or we gains something good. we cursed if something bad happen to us. supposely we say INALILLAH or SUBHANALLAH or ASTAGFIRULLAH. we feel shy even to sujud in the middle of people to express our thanks to ALLAH.

look at this people. thousands are watching them. there is no single term of SHY in their heart when it comes to showing their love to ALLAH.




come on peeps! sat awhile and think, how much we thanks ALLAH compared to how much did ALLAH gives His love to you?

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i am bestfriend of nobody
and
nobody is my bestfriend.





ignorance is a total bliss.