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i am bestfriend of nobody
and
nobody is my bestfriend.





ignorance is a total bliss.

happy teachers day!!!!

In the middle of this drifting season
I suddenly feel the length of the days
In the midst of these quickly-passing days
You and I dream away

With my feelings on the March wind
The cherry blossom buds continue on into spring

The overflowing drops of light
One by one warm the morning
Beside you, I'm a little embarrassed
After a huge yawn

I'm standing at the door to a new world
What I've realized is that I'm not alone

If I close my eyes
You're behind my eyelids
How strong has that made me?
I hope I'm the same for you

The dusty whirlwind
Tangled up the laundry, but
The white moon in the morning sky
Was so beautiful, I couldn't look away

There are things that don't go the way I planned
But if I look up to the sky, even they seem small

The blue sky is cold and clear
The fluffy clouds float by quietly
If I can share with you the joy
Of waiting for the flowers to bloom, I'll be happy

From now on, I want you to be quietly smiling beside me

If I close my eyes
You're behind my eyelids
How strong has that made me?
I hope I'm the same for you


nice wordings huh? totally agree!! so, i'm dedicating this to everyone on this luvly teachers day. everyone is a teacher to me. u guys makes me who i am today. whether i'm learning directly or indirectly from anyone of you, the knowledge u guys gave to me is priceless! and the most importantly, i want u to know that, each and everyone of u are precious~! thanks..

as everyone knows, i'm on exam rite now. but i couldn't help myself to wrote about this.

last few weeks, i went to seek for my lecturer (identiti dirahsiakan atas sebab2 keselamatan). what i did is, i ask her a question that i can't answer. well, theoretically, it's quite true that the question are though. it's not really far beyond our syllabus, its just a bit tougher than our normal past year papers. what happen is, she fail to answer it and the most saddening part is the said this to me : " x payah la awak nak susah-susah fikir soalan ni. xkan masuk dalam exam lah. "

well, i did appreciate her effort trying to answer for my question. but, i couldn't accept her words. what are she was thinking? am i study just for the sake of exam?

well, studying is not for exam. i'm studying for my future. exam is just to to check the understanding about certain topic. well, what confirms you from understanding that certain topics or subject is you can applied it on ur daily life. so, in future, you won't be cheated or fooled by someone just because that particular someone is appear to be smarter than you. well,some people, they did well during the exam. but when it comes to real world, they actually kindda stupid also. this what most malay says as 'orang cerdik belajar tapi bodoh hidup'

belajar dengan hati
bukan hanya dengan menghafal huruf-huruf dan formula-formula
tapi untuk mengenali diri kita
mengenali tentang dunia kita
bukan untuk exam
tapi untuk masa depan

marriage, ready or not?

girls do think about sex and marriage. seriously.
well,i dun really take it seriously when suddenly one of my friend suddenly came across about this topic. hahaha.. it's kindda funny to think tho. well, we're still 19. but on deep thinking, another 7 or 8 years, we all have probability of getting married. 8 years is not a long period. it's just a blink of eyes. u won't even notice that time actually passed very quickly. oke. back to the main topic. well, most girls about my age when talked about marriage, we all think dress, pelamin and how grand it is. hahahaha.. i'm thinking the same also. but this one friend of mine is really mature on thinking. she have thought beyond, like what kind of husband she would wish to get, or how she would treat her husband. it not just normal treat like serve tea after the husband went back home from work. its far, far beyond it. she have thought of how to make the marriage to be fun everyday, how to treat the husband so that the husband wont feel bored and seek another wife, its more to sex actually. well, maybe some people would think she was been thinking too much. but for me, she kindda true. study is my main priority. but you cant avoid thinking about marriage. like i said earlier, 8 years is no long time to wait.
to be honest,i'm really curious what kind a husband i would get. a doctor maybe? or engineer? or maybe i would not getting married at all? OMG! minta jauh2x~!! one thing that God promise us is good woman is made for a good man only. that is important. so, be nice. then u would have nice husband in return.

pray everyday that u're jodoh is someone nice and religious so that he can lead to ur God's path. marriage is not a something u can play about. it's a bout giving ur love to someone and having a commitment to something. oke. stop thinking too deep. focus on ur AS exam first.


Bismillahirrahmaanirrahiim...

Ya Allah jika aku jatuh cinta,
cintakanlah aku pada seseorang yang melabuhkan cintanya padaMu,
agar bertambah kekuatanku untuk menyintaiMu
Ya Muhaimin, jika aku jatuh hati,
izinkanlah aku menyentuh hati seseorang yang hatinya tertaut padaMu
agar tidak terjatuh aku dalam jurang cinta nafsu...
Ya Rabbana ,jika aku jatuh hati
jagalah hatiku padanya agar tidak berpaling daripada hatiMu.....
Ya Rabbul Izzati ,jika aku rindu ,
rindukanlah aku pada seseorang yang merindui syahid di jalan Mu....
Ya Allah ,jika aku menikmati cinta kekasihMu
janganlah kenikmatan itu melebihi kenikmatan indahnya bermunajat di
sepertiga malam terakhirMu
Ya Allah , jika aku jatuh hati pada kekasihMu
jangan biarkan aku tertatih dan terjatuh dalam perjalanan panjang
menyeru manusia kepadaMu....
Ya Allah jika Kau halalkan aku merindui kekasihMu
jangan biarkan aku melampaui batas sehingga melupakan aku pada cinta hakiki
dan rindu abadi hanya kepadaMu......
Amin.....

AS MODE : ON

i'm studying! OYEAH! REALLY studying oke. i meant it. i read, do xcercises and stay up till urm.. 3 or 4 something. and now i'm growing eyebags. hahahaha.. probably, sooner i'm turning into a panda. during lunch, when i actually out of my apartment and met some of my friend, we will come cross some conversation like this

" eh. see. i'm gowing eyebags."
*these word usually come from me. well, wif this sad and pathetic face*

"yeah. can see. see mine. got ka?" eh~ u got also! when r u sleeping last nite?" "around 3 something" "no wonder. mine is 4 something."
..bla bla bla...
i am in a complete mess rite now. well, books are not in place. u can see my blanket and pillow at our ruang tamu.

and my dearly katil, which i've abandoned it lately. well, i'm always sleep outside. it's cool freezing outside in the living room. and i often sleep wif books and lappy on on my side. hahaha.. effort gile!





dun mention study table. believe me. u dun even wanna know it!

tomorrow, we'll start our AS. wah!!! this is s0o terrifying!! OMG!OMG!OMG!
of course i'm aiming for all A's in AS! especially maths. i dun wanna drop it during A2! and of course getting AS results wif flying colours will help to determine our plecement in india medical university. well, i hope i'll get into da 4 season university! hahahaha..
everyone who read this. plis pray for my success!